half of january is already gone. how the heck did that happen?! i have been working a bit but other than that nothing has really pushed this month to go fast. life in general seems to be going faster all the time. maybe i am enjoying myself more ("time flies when you're having fun"). i didn't even have much time to think about the non-resolutions that i made (twenty ten). i did not want to make new years resolutions because they never really seem to work. it's more about making lifestyle changes and being accountable to them everyday. in the first couple months of the year the gym is always packed and i hate it. i want people to fall off their resolution wagons already so i can do supersets and not have to worry about waiting for equipment.
one of my excuses for not going to the gym is that it is so busy all the time but honestly i haven't been feeling it. i have been lazy. also i haven't been conscious about what i've been eating so it's kind of a waste of time. what is it going to take for me to actually be serious about becoming the best that i can be? no, i am not joining the army. i just feel like i only get one shot at this thing called life. each day comes and goes and then it is gone, you only have one chance to really grab life by the balls. everyday is a new day, a new game. it's like golf where each hole is an individual one but at the end you have a total score. string together a bunch of good days and you'll get a good week. string together weeks and you can see some progress in a weight lifting program or even on the scale if that is your goal.
regardless of it being daily thing though, i do have a goal now. june 4, 2011 my little sister is getting married and i have the honor of being her maid of honor. it is freaking me out just a little bit but i figured out that i have 502 days until the wedding. i have lots of time! i don't have to freak out. i want to look good for her wedding (not better than her of course!) and i'll have to wear a dress. i get to have input on the kind of dress which is cool. i don't think i even put on a dress in 2009 because i didn't have reason to do so. i own one but it is deep in storage somewhere and doesn't even fit because i bought it in 2005. the point to this whole post is that i want to work on myself for this wedding. 502 days is a lot but i know it will go by quickly with preparations and so forth. if it were my wedding i'd go to vegas or voodoo donuts and just be done with it but that wouldn't make my mom very happy. luckily i don't have to think about that yet.
i bought a notebook for $1 at fred meyer and i plan on keeping track of everything, food and exercise. this is the only way to do it. i have the knowledge and education to put together workouts and meal plans. i even have the time right now to do it. i have just been lazy. STOP BEING LAZY! it is just so much more fun to sit and play resident evil 4 on the wii rather than hit the gym. so today i went to the gym first and now i'm gonna go play RE4. hahaha
17 January 2010
11 January 2010
#210 - part time
i've been doing some part time home care work. yes, work. wow. it's been awhile since i've had to get up at a certain time. it is not even 9pm and i am ready for bed. while starting at 9am shouldn't be too difficult, it is kind of annoying. i like to sleep in. i don't like to set my alarm. for awhile there i was waking up consistently at about 10. i will miss those days but it is kind of nice to get into a sort-of schedule. i say sort-of because this is just temporary. the couple i am doing home care for just needs someone till they are over a hump of sorts. then it's onto the next client, and the next, and the next. they all live in different areas of portland and it will take different amounts of time to get there. also the times of their care will vary. right now it's four hours a day (9a-1p), five days a week, ten blocks from my house. i can handle that. plus they are cute and nice. if this at all sounds like complaining or whining, it is not. i like it. i just like sleep better. why can't i be paid to eat, sleep, workout, listen to music, and play Wii?
02 January 2010
#209 - twenty ten
i started the year forcing myself to stay awake till midnight. i must be getting old because that has never been hard before. also i am sick so that doesn't help things much. unfortunately i have been under the weather since christmas eve. i am so done with not being able to breathe properly and coughing up gross stuff. hopefully it is not a sign of things to come.
new years day was pretty great though, slept in and ate lots of good food, including good luck ozoni. we went to see the movie AVATAR that everyone is talking about. i had all these expectations because of everything people were saying and thought i would be disappointed. thankfully i was not. the movie was cool and the effects were amazing. it really made me want to visit their planet and of course take care of our own. someone wants what you have so you start a war to take it away. hmm sounds familiar.
what do i want for 2010? i guess this would be new years wishes.
1. health
2. happiness
3. money (a job)
i think that just about sums it up. everything that i want for this year would go under those three categories somehow. i think that is the order of importance for me because if i don't have my health then i cannot have the other two. 2009 will be hard to beat but i have a feeling that this year will be better!
HEALTH
of greatest importance is my health. included in this category would be eating right and exercising. thankfully these are things that i enjoy doing. the last couple months have been pretty gluttonous. i have a hard time not filling myself with delicious foods when it is in front of me. i have to eat until i am uncomfortably full...but i am working on this. okinawans have a phrase, "hara hachi bu" which means 80% full. i want to practice this. i love my veggies and health food in general. thank goodness the holidays are over!
my gym membership is still good and they are in the middle of a renovation so it will be bigger and better. i need to be more consistent with this. it got really cold and so i am wearing long underwear everywhere. it just seems like such a hassle to change out of them and into gym clothes and then back into them afterwards. pain in the ass. so i haven't gone in awhile because of that.
HAPPINESS
koko ni sachi ari. my life is wonderful and i am thankful to have all the people in my life today. i am really happy. could it be my relationship of the last 11 months? could it be all the free time and no stress of work? could it be ___? i am not sure but i am glad i am feeling this way. i have hope for this upcoming year that it will only get better. there will be trials and tribulations. there will be hardships. there will be fighting and unhappiness. there will also be my support system all around me to carry me through. awesome!
MONEY
that's what i want. it has been about 6 months with my RN license and still no job despite looking and applying all the time. it is a little frustrating but i believe there is a reason for it so i am going with it. i am doing the work and waiting for results. not much else i can do. so while i am waiting for that first nursing job to come, i still need to make money so i am looking all over the place for work. we'll see what happens.
happy new year!
new years day was pretty great though, slept in and ate lots of good food, including good luck ozoni. we went to see the movie AVATAR that everyone is talking about. i had all these expectations because of everything people were saying and thought i would be disappointed. thankfully i was not. the movie was cool and the effects were amazing. it really made me want to visit their planet and of course take care of our own. someone wants what you have so you start a war to take it away. hmm sounds familiar.
what do i want for 2010? i guess this would be new years wishes.
1. health
2. happiness
3. money (a job)
i think that just about sums it up. everything that i want for this year would go under those three categories somehow. i think that is the order of importance for me because if i don't have my health then i cannot have the other two. 2009 will be hard to beat but i have a feeling that this year will be better!
HEALTH
of greatest importance is my health. included in this category would be eating right and exercising. thankfully these are things that i enjoy doing. the last couple months have been pretty gluttonous. i have a hard time not filling myself with delicious foods when it is in front of me. i have to eat until i am uncomfortably full...but i am working on this. okinawans have a phrase, "hara hachi bu" which means 80% full. i want to practice this. i love my veggies and health food in general. thank goodness the holidays are over!
my gym membership is still good and they are in the middle of a renovation so it will be bigger and better. i need to be more consistent with this. it got really cold and so i am wearing long underwear everywhere. it just seems like such a hassle to change out of them and into gym clothes and then back into them afterwards. pain in the ass. so i haven't gone in awhile because of that.
HAPPINESS
koko ni sachi ari. my life is wonderful and i am thankful to have all the people in my life today. i am really happy. could it be my relationship of the last 11 months? could it be all the free time and no stress of work? could it be ___? i am not sure but i am glad i am feeling this way. i have hope for this upcoming year that it will only get better. there will be trials and tribulations. there will be hardships. there will be fighting and unhappiness. there will also be my support system all around me to carry me through. awesome!
MONEY
that's what i want. it has been about 6 months with my RN license and still no job despite looking and applying all the time. it is a little frustrating but i believe there is a reason for it so i am going with it. i am doing the work and waiting for results. not much else i can do. so while i am waiting for that first nursing job to come, i still need to make money so i am looking all over the place for work. we'll see what happens.
happy new year!
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