#62 - maybe the end

i am so distraught right now it's hard to think. the worst thing EVER just happened to me. i am totally serious when i say this is huge. i was all ready to leave my house and get on the bus for an hour's ride. i had my ipod, turned it on and picked a mason jennings song that was in my head ("nothing") to listen to. then my screen froze. then i tinkered around, trying the reset thing where you hold the menu and select buttons at the same time. then this...

i could not believe it. i had heard about the sad ipod icon but had never seen it. i was naive to think that my ipod would never die. maybe it only happens to other people, i thought. well i was pretty wrong. it is on disk mode right now, attached to my computer, which it still recognizes. so that is a good thing. i do not trust it to take it off "life support". i am afraid. i am very afraid.

it is a 60GB ipod, not the fancy video one, but the one right before - photo ipod. so it's kind of old. still has color screen and all that but i've had it awhile. it was stupid of me to think it would live forever. as of this moment, i have 11,274 songs on my ipod. it is over 40GB worth. my itunes library on my computer has 4518 songs, 16GB. where are all those other songs, you may ask?! well since i got my ipod i've lived in several places and had a few different computers. it is a lot of work to try and figure out all that music. a lot of it is stuff i haven't listened to a whole lot. i like to just give music a chance, i put it on there in hopes i'll listen and like it. in reality i listen to mostly the same 50 albums over and over. i need to work on that. what's the point in having so much music anyway?

maybe this is good for me. release my attachment to this thing. i just love music so much and being able to go everywhere with your whole library of music is just so great! convenience at its best. sometimes i'll just get into an eminem mode and there it is. i have a little ipod shuffle that i mostly use for working out but there isn't a screen so you can't see or pick the song you want. it's so different and only holds about 250 songs. it's great for the gym but otherwise...i need my classic. like i said, it's now permanently attached to my computer until i can figure out what to do. of course my warranty ran out and so for $150 i can see if they could fix it (no guarantees!) or for $250 i could get a new 80GB video ipod, which would mean putting in lots of work to figure out albums i need, get them and all that. ARGH!!!!!!!